so I have had time to spend alone lately. So far I think its been good for me. I look forward to the changes coming in the next month or so. getting a chance to start over with alot of things. a chance to make changes for me. I have actually started mapping out steps, and I think I will post them here once a few more things fall into place. I want this year 2008 to be the year that I fix the last of what has been broken with me for so long. I would love to see 200 lbs again. I would really like to start trying new foods that I in the past have not liked. I would like to have 2 cars in the garage that I can actually drive. To have a yard that I don't have to be embarrased about (no comments from anyone who says "Your yard is just fine"). I would also like to take the time to decorate the inside of my house and make it more than just plain walls.
These are the highlights. details will come in the following weeks.
I think I can smile again, and if not now, then soon. for no reason. I remember those days, that I was just happy. it bugs me how I can slip into places where I have to think about smiling.
soon I think. soon I will be back there. I really look forward to being home again.
*smiling* now, and not having to think about it. just need to make that a more often thing now
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