the weekend...
I often wonder if life is a grouping of little circles... when I say that I mean I wonder if we go through things that we have already gone through in a slightly different way so that we can remember, so that we can get a different perspective... I have noticed that I have gone through alot of the stuff I have already been trough in my life again recently, but this time its like I am on the opposite side of the situation, seeing things from the other perspective. its really weird to see a situation coming and realize that I am now on the other side. it has caused some really emotional nights, and also some true smiles and laughter... at the same time I am apprehensive about the future, and the things that may be coming. i find my self stressed out about stuff that 1. I have no control over. 2. things that I have done everything I can about, and 3. things that are so far in the future, that I need to just let things happen and see where they go... I guess there is alot more time to think about things now, time to sit in the dark, time to deal with my deamons. I find myself spending alot of time with friends now, compensating I think... I need to try and spend some time alone, so that I can get used to it. so that I can be good at being on my own again...
I talked to mitch today, that was nice... it did make me realize that I made a few promises that I need to keep this year, I need to make an appoitment with the dentist and the doctor for my snoring and lack of sleep... I hope Mitch will get to come down and visit AZ this year, I think that would be a good time.
Labels: memories, mitch, perspective, the future

