9th floor and holding

so as I lay here, looking out the window of my 9th floor room I find myself thinking about everything. I have some music playing on the ipod, Amazing grace played on bag pipes. That always gives me chills. I am not sure why I have developed this admiration for bagpipe music but its like it connects to the deepest parts of me.

This road I am on, I can see it has turns. I can see that I am in for some tough decisions. I can see that I will spend a good amount of time alone. I can remember a time when even the thought of that was unbearable. The thought of being alone was so terrifying, that I would make decisions that I know now made little sense for me, and many times were actually bad for me. Driven by only my desire to not be alone I made even the worst decisions work. At least at the time I was convinced I was making them work. The Truth is that the pain and sorrow I felt, the internal struggle I had came out in other ways. Often inflicted on people that did not deserver it. At one point in my life I had decided that it was no longer worth "Working to survive." For me it was lucky that there was someone there... to extend a helping hand in my hour of deepest need. Its weird for me to write about this now. It seems so long ago, and I seem like such a different person now.

The struggles I face now, and those which are in my future will push me, they will test me. I know that I am a stronger person for them. Its odd to me, I can take a step back from my life, I can see my life from a outside perspective, and I question things. Why did I make this decision? Why do I feel that way? Why am I so hard on myself? The answers are not as important as the questions to me, I need to keep asking, keep thinking. Keem Moving forward.

Dinner.... MOOOOOO YA

So after work today, I drove around downtown Dallas for a while... just kinda seeing what there was to see. After I had driven around for a while and had decided back to the hotel, I put in the address into helen who had decided to work today. I plotted a course that was shortest instead of fastest. I was hungry, and as I wound through the back streets I saw this place called MOOYEH burgers and fries. Yes I am serious. I figured "Oh heck, why not."

it reminded me of a 50's diner, and the burger was AWSOME. The burger was one of the best I have ever had. the fries were cut with the skin left on, they to were awsome. So for 9$ and no waiting... can't complain bout that.

OMG breakfast buffet

I had to write about this... So I am staying in what I am calling the hollywood tower of terror (disneyland theme park ride) its old, run down and like somthing straight out of a twilight zone eppisode. So I came downstairs to get some breakfast, and experienced the worst breakfast buffet I have ever had... I was then charged 13$ FOR THE PRIVELEGE!!! Well I guess you live and learn.. I will DEFINATLY be leaving a comment card here.. did I mention the chocolate milk I had was expired.... I am SURE there will be more on this adventure..

Dallas day 1

So I am aproaching the end of the day here in Dallas. I woke up later than I had planned this morning, but due to scheduling issues I arrived at the airport 2.5 hours early. aperently when i booked my flight, I got the wrong information for when I was going to fly out and it was later than I had anticipated... better than earlier I suppose. While I was sitting at the airport using the free wi-fi catching up on some e-mail and documentation, I recieved a phone call from my co-worker that I was going to meet in Dallas. He aperently changed his flight and flew through phoenix. I hear that same announcer through his phone as I did though my own ears so I knew he was close. We found each other chatted a little and then boarded the plane. 4-rows apart.

As an interesting side note, I also recieved an e-mail from my manager who said that we did not HAVE to use the travel agency to book travel. I think that I will give it one more shot using the web site instead of calling them, if that doesn't work any better then I will try booking my own flights.

The flight was not to long, other than sitting on the runway for 40 minutes while they cleared some sort of traffic jam in front of us. In case anyone is wondering, yes I got a middle seat again!! once in flight I had my usual ginger ale, and snack mix (they replaced peanuts with a "snack mix" i don't get it but thats a rant for another day.) the landing into Dallas was pretty wild, the plane was all over the place, but eventually touched down and we taxied to the gate. Once out of the plane I headed for baggage claim to pick up the bag I had checked, and then off to the rental car place.

Dallas, like PHX has a rental car location that is off of the main airport area. The layout of the Dallas airport, is odd to say the least. Once at the rental counter and after convincing the lady behind the counter that yes I was sure it was going to be ok that I got a Ford Focus I headed out to the car. I was pleasently surprised to see that it was one of the brand new modles. I actually really like the way it looks. After driving it for about 30 minutes I can now say that I like the way it deives to. Its definatly no rocket ship, but it will keep you from dieing on the freeway if you have to get out of the way. Its also surprisingly quiet, even thought I am pretty sure it was the most stripped one you can get doesn't even have cruise control. It Does however have the aux in port and all the little trip computer stuff that I thought was pretty cool.

The drive into Dallas proper was fairly pleasent, several slow sections but nothing that would compair to the drive home from LA on friday or even normal Phoenix traffic. Once at the customers site, I was disapointed to find out I had to leave my phone in the car because it had a cammera in it, oh well. I can also say now that GoDaddy is not the only company who has crappy funature and buildings. LOL Well thats it for now. I am off to find some food I think