at home in the dark....

with all the things that have happened in the last couple of days, my brain has gon into thinking mode again..

I think I am such a easy person to read, but maybe most people are eaiser to read than most even realize.. maybe people just don't take the time to get to know someone.. rushing through life to and fro, never stopping to make connections with people.. I wonder if those people will reach the end and wonder where it all went? its such a short time that we are here, and lately it just seems like people are so focused on their day to day tasks that they miss out on all the wonderfull things going on around them.

I found myself thinking today about the time that loren and I were at borders at the esplinad and the young man was there with his mother. She fell and the young man could not help her up by him self, so loren and I helped, and all she could say was that she was so sorry, like it was somehow her fault and that she was putting someone out... have we really reached a point in socicity where this is the mentatality.. that the elderly and infirm are a nusance.... I often think about how things will be when I am old.... well older.... I wonder if there will be anyone interested in spending time with me? if there will be any thing for me? how old I will be when the light that has been my life reaches it conclusion...

I am sure that most of this comes from the stuff with my mom, binging up alot of old thoughs, that I have not thought about for a long time. In one hand I feel like my soul is so old, that I was born in the wrong decade, that I would like nothing more than to live in a simpeler time, a time where people actually stopped smelled the roses, took time to relax, and took that extra moment to help their fellow man...