Nothing Left I can say.

So I haven't posted here for a while. I really lost the interest to write, with everything else going on in my life. About a week ago, my life took a drastic turn, a turn I did not see coming and had no idea how to deal with. It occurred to me, recently that letting go is one of the hardest things for me. Even after making so many mistakes, and hurting someone, its still hard for me to let go, beyond the pain, and the should have, and the could have. I want so desperately to be able to help everyone in my life and make their lives better somehow.

What I am learning is there are times when I have to let go, when I either have done as much as I can, or by my actions alone I hurt someone else. This is somthing that I cannot live with. Espically when its someone I considered my best friend. It is to late now, to late to apologize there is nothing more I can do.

Yes this post is written for you. I never wanted to hurt you. I never wanted to drive you away. its to late for excuses, its to late to mend the fences. This is something I will have to live with the rest of my life.