life and relationships.

I have been thinking about life and relationships tonight. I have come to a few realizations. I know that relationships don't go bad over night, much as the connection made between two people is not made over night... But I also think there are key moments in any relationship, from friends, lovers, co-workers, whatever; that a decision is made by one or more of the parties that may seem trivial at that moment. from as simple as "oh I don't need to tell person X about this thing, because they wouldn't care" to something more serious like "well the reaction I got when I shared what was on my mind was not plesent, so I will just not share anymore" the fact is that once a decision like that is made, the relationship changes. maybe for the good in the short term, but more than likely for the bad in the long run.

I don't pretend to believe that there is a perfect relationship. I think that every relationship has its ups and downs. the trouble that I have is that I don't know when a relationship becomes wrong, or at what point after meeting someone that it becomes right. I have to admit, that lately I have enjoyed sitting at home alone usually in the dark. When I am not working, I have taken to enjoying some TV or just sitting in the dark and listening to music.

I know that I work to much, I took this weekend to relax a little. unfortunately I was also fairly stressed out for a good part of it. I wish that I could have actually got a few more things done. but I really think that I needed to relax this weekend. I also think that I need to take a little step back this week. I know that I am going to be super busy at work. but I really need to step back and relax take some time for me and the stuff I have been putting off.